Christian Intern – Trusting God Through Fear
By CBM National intern, Priscilla Depew –
Hello everyone! As I write this, I am on my third rotation at Camp Grace in Fairmont, North Carolina. I figured I would share my testimony, since this is my last rotation. I became a Christian when I was seven years old. My mom and I were sitting in the living room, doing a Bible lesson, when I accepted Jesus as my Savior. Nothing huge happened. It wasn’t like I immediately felt changed, and I remember wondering about that. As seven-year-olds do, however, I didn’t really dwell on that thought for long. Over the next 6 years, I said I was a Christian, but I wasn’t growing spiritually. I wasn’t reading my Bible and I didn’t think much more about salvation, other than the fact that I was going to Heaven one day.
When I was thirteen I started working at Camp Ta-Pa-Win-Go, another CBM camp. I loved it. I loved the people; I loved the activities. It was great! I would go home after working during the summer and I would read my Bible and say that I was going to be consistent, but I never lasted longer than a few weeks.
The summer I turned sixteen, my parents decided that we were going to change churches. That may not sound like a big deal, but it was to me. I was raised in my old church. I knew everybody and I didn’t have to leave my comfort zone. I was angry at my parents and I was lonely. I didn’t want to reach out to the people at my new church because I didn’t want to be there.
Then, after that summer ended, we started taking classes at a new school. Looking back on it, God was really trying to get me to look to Him and trust Him during that time. I learned that I was not out-going. People terrified me. I didn’t like talking to new people, speaking out in a group, or even just saying “Hi” to someone. That winter was hard but, through it all, I felt God bringing me closer to Him. I could talk to Him when I was angry or upset. I started reading my Bible and paying attention to what it was saying, not just reading it to check it off a list. I found the verse 2 Timothy 1:7 which says, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, and timidity, but of power, and love, and self-discipline.” That has stuck with me to this day because I still struggle with fear.
I started the CBM National Internship back in September and I have grown a lot since then. I have been learning how to trust God with everything and, like the verse said, I don’t have to have a spirit of fear because He is with me and He will never leave me. I know I still have a lot to learn during my summer here at Camp Grace, but I look forward to it. And I look forward to what God has in store for me next.
Edited by CBM National
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